Compared to other kids I haven’t many hardships, not really. Y’know shit’s happened, stuff has happened sure, but stuff always happens, right? The real hardship is me, it always been me. As long as I can remember I’ve never not been afraid, afraid of failure, of letting people down, or hurting people, getting hurt. I thought if I kept my guard up, focused on other things, on other people, if I couldn’t even feel it, well then no harm would come to me. I screwed up, not only did I shut out the pain, I shut out everything, the good and the bad, until there was nothing. It’s fine to just live in the now, but the best part about now is there’s an other one tomorrow, and I’m gonna start making them count.